My Epic Fail | Failure is part of Success

Michael Jordan

Albert Einstein

Oprah Winfrey

Walt Disney

Lionel Messi

Steve Job

Eminem

Thomas Edison

The Beatles

Dr. Seuss

Abraham Lincoln

Steven Spielberg

JK Rowling

These are the names that have failed at some point in their lives but because of the strong will they have, they succeeded. And I hope, I'll be as strong as them in the future.

I haven't said it out loud to anyone and as much as possible I tried to avoid the conversation.

Due to unfortunate circumstances, I made a huge mistake at work by screaming at my customer, it cost me my job and thankfully the company that I worked for gave me an honorable exit. What happened? I let my emotions be the boss of me. I was going through a tough time, was alone in my old apartment and no one to talk to then the worst part, it was in the middle of this lockdown because of the pandemic. I know some of you would think that it's not excuse to be unprofessional. I agree with you. Me either can't believe that I did that mistake at work.

Anxiety and depression were the things I never thought would happen to me. Admittedly, I am still going through with this phase and have some few episodes but I am trying my best to manage, re-wire my brain and emotions to at ease by watching and reading self-help books and the Holy Bible. It also helps talking to family and loved ones, it may not be the specific topic about the problem ('cause your embarrassed) you're trying to overcome but at least someone would talk to you and make you feel involved again.

Why I am telling you this and what's the connection? Well, I just want to share with you, if you are somewhat in the same position as me right now, I want you to know that I do too, feel like what happened to me is my ultimate epic failure. I kept telling myself how disappointing I was and people will no longer look at me the same way. Every time I look back at the times where I cried and was angry at myself for staying at my job that I didn't love and enjoy anymore, all the times I wish I could just quit and just do what I wanted to do for the longest time... then... my wish came true, it didn't matter how or what method will be use to force to me leave the job but it worked. So, be careful what you wish for and avoid saying something stupid that will make you regret in the end. I know I did. I regret because of the simple things like, insurance and benefits - material things which eventually I learned to accept that these are not the most important things.

I watched Eduardo Zanatta's video about Failure Is Part of Success. That there are 3 things to keep in mind about failures. 

One, don't give up early - everyone, including me has goals but not all are to achieve or lacks determination and persistent to reach this objectives. We humans, have the tendency to quit when things didn't work out and we say "maybe it's just not meant to be" and it's a wrong attitude. Eduardo is right! That's why I never stop trying, I am learning to be a good freelancer this time, I have been receiving some rejections but I am also glad that in between, I am also being hired for projects, it's not much right now however I am learning from the rejections. Secondly, failure is non-existence if you learn from it because there's always lessons to take away especially when you have given your best. It's our ride to success and will connect us to what is best for us. Lastly, this one right here really hit me to the core -  Past is not equal to future, I have the control to redeem and create my new story, our past mistakes will not define who we really are, we have to fight this approach in facing our present and future.

So before we stop trying, we have to learn that if you never have failed, you'll never try anything new. Let us be our own heroes this time around and keep moving forward.